It's cool. I'm genuinely happy for him.
I wanted our wedding song to be "Songbird" by Christine Mcvie. (It's in my playlist to the right.) He thought it was a weird song. It's not a weird song! I thought it was perfect. I still think it's a beautiful song, but now it's forever linked to my make-believe wedding to him. It's funny how songs can do that . . .
Anyway, I actually heard Fleetwood Mac on the radio tonight when I was driving and then I thought about how much I love "Silver Springs" and then "Songbird" popped into my brain (because Christine Mcvie is a member of Fleetwood Mac--in case you aren't a huge music nerd like me).
Little links in the internet of my brain.
It's so funny how these "little links" can fling you right back to a time when you thought things were going to go in a completely different direction. I ended it, so I can't really dwell that much--but it's still there in the back of my mind. It's filed neatly with the good and the shitty times, the gifts, the concerts we saw together, deaths and births, me getting sick and him being there so unafraid, and a ton of other stuff that happens in five years.
Sometimes I feel like I live my life in a really fucked up romantic comedy . . . I also feel like I've been through more relationships than many people go through in their entire lifetime. But whatever, it's my romantic comedy, and I suppose it's all what I make of it. But damn, it would be lovely if Matthew Mcconaughey showed up one of these days . . . shirtless, of course.
Love,
Nik
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There are some songs that bring up very vivid memories from past relationships. If I listen to one I can feel, smell and taste the moments I had with them. It's amazing how music is so powerful like that.
eQ: Ya and the songs tend to come out of nowhere . . . to lift you up, or knock ya on your ass. Music is powerful, indeed. PS: I'm working on my halloween costume today! I even got actual curtains for some of it. So stoked!!!!
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